After all these years it amazes me too.
At the time in 1990 and again in '99 I had engaged (and do so currently too) in spiritual practices daily without expectations and work in service as a facilitator of healing and relieving suffering. I am constantly amazed and surprised by what comes through me.
There has been a lot of prep work for receiving the gift of this path and I feel joyous and blessed daily.
Thank-you for your praise. I hope you don't mind me sharing - that I feel your open heart. Blessings to you on your journey. Namaste.