Hello Mandy, I read this story and your story: REALIZING YOU NO LONGER LOVE YOUR CHILD.

You have gone through and are still undergoing the most grief I could ever imagine anyone to experience. It seems above all else survival is your goal.

My mother was unseen by my father, who the baby he was had to be the constant center of attention. Over the years I watched my mother develop an unconscious passive-aggressive strategy in dealing with my father by talking in non-sequiturs and then laughing nervously when he belittled her. It seems that she was forced into a defense of dementia. I did my best to try to help her, but to no avail. Thank God you were able to extricate yourself from your former husband.

I was diagnosed with DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) due to ritual sexual abuse as a child. Lots of therapy.

Then I plateaued into an acceptable life with stuck grief. In November of 2019 a friend and colleague suggested taking a homeopathic formula for grief Ignatia amara 30c (also for anxiety - which I don't have that much). The formula has helped me tremendously to help heal grief on deep emotional and physical levels.