I was depressed throughout childhood with thoughts of death. I was in therapy with a guy that wasn’t right for me, at the time I didn’t know the extent of the abuse. It wasn’t until I turned 40 and was taking a homeopathic formula for skin issues that I began having flashbacks, night terrors and body memories. The first therapist I went to was transitioning from hypno-therapist to a PhD intern. She said we had to go slow. It was easy to see the guise of her being afraid of lawsuits. A friend suggested I contact a woman therapist an expert with PTSD. I saw her until she retired. Because I had a long standing spiritual practice since 1975 - it also helped.

I’m in my 70s now and still dealing with the effects of being abused by 4 male relatives individually and a group in ritual sexual abuse.

I still have trust issues. I decided after my last relationship to work on being in a relationship with myself.
When I read your story, I found myself getting teary and having some body memories. I breathed into the body memories and released them.

Thank you for sharing your story., being brave enough to tell it. It’s very encouraging.