In the 90s had been invited to a success group when I did not feel it because I equated success with with money. In the midst of the second monthly meeting I felt how needy the others who had money felt and behaved as if in a competition. I had an "ah-ha" moment. I felt successful because I felt happy, skillful, and growing / learning in my work.

I let go of struggling as much for clients. Since that time I have put thoughts out to the universe for clients and they come. Of course they come when I'm writing or engaged in some other project and I feel I'm not ready. It's a bit of the wah-wah - oh pity me. (I get to laugh at myself in retrospect.)

I accept it and drop into the work - everything flows - miraculous stuff comes. I feel in-tune. I feel wealthy and blessed. I enter a state of timeless wonder for the duration of the session.

One of the major struggles I have had is letting go of struggling and trusting that I am on my dharma path. Part of this is luck and I came a long way to open a space for luck to enter.