My father was a man you was afraid, but he couldn't admit the fear and became angry instead. He was a political conservative that came from fear and hatred of authority. He manipulated me into feeling angry so he could defeat me and when I had enough I quit his game and let go of my anger and my fear. I was 16 when that happened. Then I saw the rest of his elite snobbery and his constant desire to be better than everyone else and all his other hypocritical BS.

When he wasn't trying to be - better than he was a creative kid-like guy and fun to be around. I felt I was dropped into the wrong family, in the wrong nation during the wrong time. Part of me still feels this way.

But I found my way through the BS of brainwashing to a middle place of practice peace and drawing people out to find out what they wanted. Nearly everyone I've met that are deeply ensconced in brainwashed BS are afraid and want to feel safe.

There's something in me where most people feel safe around me and tell me their secrets if their not too afraid and find a few moments of peace.